It's Mhine4ever!

The sittings were totally different from the first time I visited the Biodome. This time, it is more convenient and beautifully done especially on the side where the penguins are. My children and I love the ice wall. This is where my children love the most especially my daughter. 

There were so much to tell but I want to make it short, this place is awesome, awesome and awesome for the whole family.

Early Childhood Educator in Quebec always faces new challenges everyday especially to those who don't speak French like me, aside from that, the stress we've been facing like dealing with daycare owners, directors, co-workers in addition to the parents who are also ungrateful to us are just too much to handle, but because of the love and dedication for our work, most of the educators tried to live as it is.

For me, my six years of experience in working daycare is considered very awful or I am foolish? Thinking of the day when I first start working, I was so excited. I promised to do things far more beyond my expectation, of course, I will do my very best. I will apply all the things I learned from school and my own skills. Unfortunately, everything I did was never appreciated. 

When I met the Ministry de la Famille inspector, I remembered, she was asking, "why I accepted the lowest salary offered by my director". My salary back then year 2015 was only $13 which was a salary for a helper. Back in 2015, the inspector told me I am already a highly qualified level 2 educator with a salary of $19 per hour. I told her (inspector) that the director promised me to raise my salary but that never happened. Until I decided to quit after working for two and a half years. 

Funny to add up with this miserable decision, I went back to work with the same daycare after a year because I really needed to have a job as soon as possible to pay my rent and to pay the rest of my bills while I was studying LPN. Then, the worst nightmare had happened between my director and me. I quit again after I was diagnosed with depression. 

Just before the new year, my schoolmate had called me and asked if I wanted to work with her in the daycare where she work. In the following months, I started. During my first day, I encountered uncomfortable questions and comments from my co-workers. All of them asked, "this is your first stage?", "don't mind her she is just stagiaire". I'm like, Wow!!! what a place to work. I deal with a bossy co-worker, I let it slide but it was just too much to handle. 

Recently, just decided to quit for multiple reasons aside from the back problem I suffered during the year of being in the baby class.

Now, here I am!!! facing a new beginning, new environment, new people around me. They are French-speaking yet they are so respectful. They accepted me for who I am. Honestly speaking, I am struggling every day trying to speak French, Google translating so I can communicate a little somehow. I never hear any complaints. 

I finished my 1 month in my new place as a successful one and hoping that I will stay and remain okay in my new workplace.

Well, hello world

Here I am at 45

Still looking young & feel ageless

Though fair skin is somewhat disappearing

Still happy, maturity shows as they’re saying.

Heart & mind feels young

Body tried to believe & sung

But oh… oh la la, oh la la

Damn, these forty-five years of age is no more fun?

What? No!

I am still happy as what I am now

Countless blessings received so I bow

Embracing all the trials, negativity doesn’t allow

Ruining this life but how?

45 years as it is

Oh yeah!

Enjoy every moment with ease

Live life to the fullest!!!

 

A poem I made for my three children namely; DJ, Ynna, and Angelo. I never thought I will gonna have three children. Yes, it is not really in my dream and of course not in my plan. I always wanted to have just one or two but God give me another blessing and that is Angelo.

At that time, I was still mourning because of the passing of my father yet I suddenly felt the fresh breeze inside my room. I felt somebody was there, I felt cold. I wrapped myself with the comforter and fell asleep. When I got up I felt relief and felt brand new.

My children are the reason why I continue to dream. This time, it’s not just for me but of course for them, for their future. I love you my kiddos, you are the reasons why I smile despite the difficulties I have in life.